Supernova

There's something inside my chest.

I've known for a while.

I feel like it's slowly devouring me.

Eating away at every thought, every memory, every feeling.

Replay. Replay. Replay. Replay.
When does it stop?!

I don't want to see it.
I don't need to see it.

Someone wake me up,

from this never-ending nightmare.

How is this going to end?

How do I surrender?
No. I won't.

I'll go down fighting.

I feel it in my bones, a supernova.
The sun seems like a joke.

Darkness envelops me again.

The flame's out.
It's been out for an eternity.

Wait till I get my hands on a lighter.

I'll set everything on fire.

I'll go down a fighter.

There's something inside me that I need to kill.


*I don't remember what song inspired this.

Alexithymia

 And she tucked herself away in a corner,
expecting no one to notice.
But truth be told, people always notice
when you don't want them to.
They've never noticed the tears in her eyes
as long as she had a smile plastered on.
But some days the sadness spread to the rest
of her face and they began to flood her with 
questions they didn't bother asking before.

She's all alone in a crowd,
she can't show you what it feels like.
And she knows better now.
She knows not to trust you now.
She knows she doesn't owe you anything.
She's still finding herself. 

Wake me up when it's all over. 

2013

Hello. :)

This will be first post of the new year since I started my blog so it's probably going to be long. I apologize beforehand for all the boring shit.

I started last year off pretty badly. As the clock struck 12:00, I was lying under my blanket crying my eyes out. Everything was coming to an end and nothing felt right. It was the towards the end of my senior year of high school. I started off school with so many friends and ended up with about 4-5 people that I could actually call friends. That's what high school is all about right? We had our farewell/graduation in February and that was damn messed up but we made the best of it. I had finals in March and ended up in a car accident on the 17th. I thought I'd died but I made it. :) Somehow I'd finished my exams and managed to graduate. Yay! Then came college applications. The worst ever, destroyed my vacation. After about a month of vigorous coaching for entrance exams at a stupid institute (which was very unfruitful), I'd got my results for the finals. They were absolutely terrible and I was doubtful about getting into college. By God's grace I got an admission into an engineering college. I finally joined college and it's been a crazy roller coaster ride since.

2013 was just another year. I'm not going to sit down and write story tales about it now. I'm just looking forward to the new year!

Happy New Year! :)

How To Make A Five Minute Mug Brownie (Eggless)

Chocolate, eggless, brownie, five minutes. Do I really need to say anymore?

Okay here's how we go about this.

Ingredients:
4 Tablespoons flour
4 Tablespoons Sugar
2 Tablespoons Cocoa powder
2 Tablespoons Vegetable oil
4 Tablespoons Milk
1 dash of salt (Not like you have the time, but still)
1/4 teaspoon vanilla extract (" ")

MAKING IT:

Step 1: Mixing

Add the sugar, flour, cocoa and salt to the mug and mix. Then add the oil and milk and mix till the dry and the wet ingredients have mixed together. Avoid clumps.

Step 2: Microwaving

Microwave on high for about a minute. To be honest, the time depends on your microwave. To know when to take it out: The brownie should still be wet in the center when done.

Step 3: Hogging time

FINITO. Now you can either cool it and then eat it in a civilized manner OR you can be like me and scarf it down while it's still burning. I recommend a dash of ice cream on top. 



TIP: After the microwaving I usually take the center out and fill it up with chocolate syrup and let it cool. This gives it a more chocolatey flavor. (obviously a bonus!)


Enjoy your brownie and please do let me know how it turns out. :) 

-V

Christmas Day

Okay. Two christmas-y posts in one day?! Seems a little over-the-top but it's all cool!
So today I woke up later than everyone else to see that they opened their gifts from me. They actually like 'em (thank god) and then I opened my gifts. "Ah such a surprise. I had no idea I was getting this when I ordered it online. Yaay. -_-"
Then I skyped with Dad for a while. I took a shower, put on a dress, ate brunch and watched movies. The driver came at around 1 and we went to pick up my sister on the way to my cousin's place. We ended up waiting half an hour for her because she was at her teacher's house to give him cake and presents. After an eternity in traffic we got there. We exchanged gifts and then headed out for pizza. While walking into Pizza Hut I saw my Mechanical Workshop lecturer, weird.  I also met up with some people I know from high school; they happened to be there. Just my luck. -_- 
Then we somehow got movie tickets for Dhoom 3. Now, the reviews I heard about the movie were absolutely terrible so I wasn't expecting much when I went in. The movie wasn't actually that bad and the stunts were kind of cool. The ending sort of sucked for a three-hour movie. 
La di da, boring stuff happened. I got in my car and came home. Blah.
Merry Christmas again! Hope you had a great one! :)

-V

Merry Christmas

I don't have the Christmas Spirit this year. I basically know what I am getting anyway and I've replaced the Christmas Jingles with EDM. Santa baby, I don't want anything this time. I've gifted myself with a Bob Marley Tee this year. So thanks? It's freezing and I'm all wrapped up in my favorite blanket. The Christmas tree's lights tint the living room in red, green and blue. The presents underneath it are in different colors topped with pretty little bows. I have one measly day of holidays; tomorrow, and the only thing I can think about is writing my computer programming observation. Just another day in the life of Vishnu. I'm way to darn sleepy to be blogging right now and if I continue to try it's going to start looking like a 3-year old took over. So good bye my lovelies!!
Hope you have the most amazing Christmas/Hanukkah/Kwanzaa/Holidays!! I hope you and your family have a great time! Stay safe! :)

Love,

V

Christmas Eve

'Twas the night before Christmas, when all through the house

Not a creature was stirring, just the click of my mouse.

The stockings weren't hung because there's no chimney.

In hope that St. Nicholas would get in somehow.

The children were nestled all snug in their beds

When visions of Ipods danced in their heads;.....